Friday, March 6, 2009

Guilty Pleasure...


Me and you met through a close friend of mines. I'm sure you two had plans on getting closer and dating and I was all for that until we started talking. With you and him "dating" it left room for us to just talk with no worries of one another judging. We kicked it and had fun, like friends do. It just seemed like the more and more we talked and kicked it the more and more we became interested in one another. When he fucked up, you came to me and told me how much you hated talking to guys because you was always left hurt. A month of you two talking seemed like 3 months of talking for me and you.

As you two stopped talking, the more and more we began to kick it. Still no sex, still no kissing. Just great conversations and kicking it. So we plan to go to the movies, its not a date, just a movie. We go out to eat, no date, just dinner. You spend the night, no cuddling, you just didn't feel like driving home afterward. So we laying in the bed and were talking and laughing, joking, not caring about a thing. What we have is, in my mind, genuine. I love it. So we go out to eat more often, no dates, just dinner. Go to the movies, no date, just a movie until we go to the park and hold hands. Then, things switched.

We kissed and started being more affectionate. Started going about things as if we were a couple. Were not suppose to be doing this is whats going on in the back of my mind but its been so long that I had something like this and I don't want it to end. It's been so long since Ive had something this real and this exciting. REFRESHING.. But we don't take it there because you feel as if you will be looked at a certain way. You don't want to cross that line because its "wrong". You two talked all of 2 months. Me and you have been kicking it for about a year and crossed the line six months ago. But hey, I'm not here to make you make a choice. Just saying it was fun while it lasted but I can't kick it with you no more without looking at you as my guilty pleasure. I want to be with you, but we can't. Thanks for letting me know that I can feel again, that I can love again. Peace out my guilty pleasure..

20 comments:

SUPRSHAZ. March 6, 2009 at 8:29 PM  

oh my gosh dude, this is so relatable on numerous levels.

JAYFENDii March 6, 2009 at 11:42 PM  

most def. i agree with *suprshaz*

this was, as always, a good read. =]

p[L]e[0]a[V]c[E] . March 7, 2009 at 12:27 AM  

aww e , dont leave her hurt .

Whatcha Nameis March 7, 2009 at 12:40 AM  

Yay ! I liked this one, a lot . Isn't it great when someone or something can refresh your mind ?

Monica March 7, 2009 at 9:43 AM  

Awww

Katrina March 7, 2009 at 12:11 PM  

You never know what happens in the future. You seem like a great friend. We need more of you in the world bub!

Ms. Naomie March 7, 2009 at 4:36 PM  

i like this..

chanel March 7, 2009 at 9:04 PM  

aww, i can see why she feels it would be wrong.
im constantly in that situation. but in ur position.

Mimi ♥ March 7, 2009 at 11:56 PM  

dude.. dit-to .. like das all i can say.. been thru it

SongBird March 8, 2009 at 9:34 AM  

i think this is the most relatable thing i read on anybody's blog..

DizZy March 8, 2009 at 3:40 PM  

You gotta read more posts then cause this aint nothing lol. Thanks for the comments.

iM.R0Ni March 8, 2009 at 5:50 PM  

damn. i love it wen u get instant chemistry with the opposite sex that isnt all sexual at first.

Super Woman March 8, 2009 at 9:35 PM  

Awww benditoo!!!

No freak shit for once (Lol you know i had to do it Dizzy!!)

I Loved this one.

there's always that one person that comes into the picture who you cant have that reminds you how nice love is......

even though he's off limits because he has a girlfriend even though he triess to tell you how much he likes you but he keeps runnin back to her and you feel like your times being waisted and he......

Ummm Oops....I Had a moment, flashbacks and stuff.....

Bout to hit you up LOL

Beautiful Q March 9, 2009 at 4:43 PM  

I like this! I'm sure its been hella people in this situation. I see u DizZ!

Kevin Ross March 9, 2009 at 10:38 PM  

Fam
"round of a applause for my boy"

Good shit, we almost one in the same

Qu33n Kam... March 10, 2009 at 9:14 AM  

omg stop writing my life for everyone to read!! lolz. I love your blog I think Ive been in almost every situation u write about! And once again Ive been in both ur place and hers!

But also, the reality is it seems like homeboy wont be around too long if she knows wats good for her so maybe you two can be together!

Miss.Fortune March 10, 2009 at 3:39 PM  

i just love this feeling..like u said its REFRESHING..
just pureness, realness...no worries..
i cant wait to hear ur mixtape man..hurry! but no pressure lol

LundiChantal March 10, 2009 at 7:54 PM  

Beautiful! But it be's like that sometimes...in situations like these you just have to make the decision that best suits you and your happiness.

Simply Azsa March 10, 2009 at 9:22 PM  

if this aint the truth.
its hard to cross "the line" of what people consider right & wrong and its harder when people tell you to follow your heart and not worry about what other people think...this hits home. && looking at your comment list im not the only one who feels the same...

Yung Rutt Da Prince March 12, 2009 at 7:20 AM  

well I'm glad that u don't have an ice chest around ur heart and ur not always on the defense bro. I'm proud of u lil bro

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